prjkthack

Tuesday September 25, 2007
Reprise

If there’s one thing I’m really good at, it’s fucking things up. I don’t know why, but shit just happens around me, all the time, and I’m either the cause or part of the problem. It really discourages me from being more social, and tends to fuck up my day. I’m a damn extrovert, yet I’d rather be inside playing games or browsing the internet. I don’t know anymore. Who am I supposed to be?

For every time that I’ve done that, I wish I had known what the consequences would’ve been, or asked what they would’ve been. This time around, I knew I should have asked, but I didn’t. I did what I wanted because it made me happy, and I assumed it would make everyone else happy too. I really wish that I hadn’t done anything. We’d be good, and everything would have stayed the same. Maybe things would’ve taken longer, but at least I’d still have the chance. Now my decision has eradicated that chance, and I’m stuck back at the beginning - somewhere I would rather not be at - all alone.

I need to just… get out of here.

I think we’re good. My indication just came really late.

Anyway, I got my camera. I ended up getting the DSC-W80 instead of the 90. I mean, when will I ever use more than 7 mega pixels? That’s all the upgraded model was for really. So I opted for the cheaper route and saved me some money. Also scored a free Memory Stick, which isn’t a bad deal. I picked up a pretty case for my camera (for $40). Beatmania came in, and I really suck at it, but I’m enjoying the game a lot. My MP3 player came in too (finally), too bad they just sent me the same one I had back, only working. I wanted a brand new replacement or something. The repair facility even installed the wrong firmware, so I had to re-install the correct firmware.

I picked up my Brand New tickets, and I’m really excited to go out with the guys and see the show. Plus, I get to use my new camera and go crazy. I can’t wait! This’ll be a good chance to get out and away from stuff. Just have some mindless fun with some great background music. God, I just hope I don’t get bled on like at The Ataris concert.

One of my co-workers quit a few days ago. I’m actually quite sad because of it. He was a really cool guy, and I enjoyed working with him. I guess I’ll still see him around Town Center, but I’m still disappointed that things just won’t be the same. I was wondering where he went, because he hadn’t come to work for a while, but now it’s all clear. I told him to come back, and move into another department. I don’t know… I hope he comes back. I spent the afternoon with him and his girlfriend today. It was nice, just talking and making fun of each other. I’m gonna miss it. Bye Nick… it was a pleasure working with you.

I didn’t get much sleep last night, but I got through today just fine. What had happened kept me happy throughout the day, though as it progressed, I became more and more worried. I was waiting for something… anything. I was hoping for the norm, and I didn’t get any indication of that at all. Again, I’m at a loss and I just don’t know what I should do. It’s over… again.

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