Thoughtful Thinking
      Tuesday November 27, 2007

I tend to think more than I should, and sometimes I even talk more than I normally would… but so does everyone else. Maybe they won’t admit it, or maybe they just don’t know it, but everyone else has to think sometime. About what’s wrong, or about what isn’t, or aobut something totally random. It’s been a long time since I’ve really taken the time to think - quietly, or out loud. Maybe that’s a bad thing, and maybe it isn’t. Even now, I’m thinking more than I normally should. It’s clouding my vision. I don’t even know where I was going with this. That’s just how it is sometimes.

Being away from home has been… interesting. I love it, I really do. Returning to a place with someone who seems to really want me to be there. Spending so much time with that someone… never really being alone. I mean, I can just turn around and there he is - the one I love.

Love. There’s that word again. I know I’ve come to my own conclusions in past instances, but I don’t know. I really don’t want to get ahead of myself this time. I want to be here for a long time. Whenever I talk to people about my boyfriend, I always slip in how I love him. Why I do that, I don’t know. Maybe I really do love him. Maybe I have no idea what I’m thinking or feeling. I don’t even really know how he feels, or if he interprets the word in a way different than I do. I really do feel like I could love him forever. Will I feel the same in another month or two? I hope so.

There we go - my thoughts are all mixed up. Same old me. It’s a real bad habit that I have to get rid of. Positive thoughts, negative thoughts, thoughts that I can’t seem to place in any one category.

There are some things that I do miss though. My computer for instance. I’d have brought it here if it weren’t broken. My sound system… damn I miss that thing. Being able to play games whenever I want. I miss that too. Funny that I signed up for a GameFly account when I barely even play games these days. Being able to sit on my once operational computer for hours and not be bothered.

One month and one day. That’s how long it’s been.
Where to go from here? I probably shouldn’t think about it and just enjoy myself.

If only my mind would let me do that.