prjkthack

Tuesday December 23, 2008
All I Ever Wanted

I’ve almost finished my Christmas shopping. There are a few more people that I need to get stuff for, but I think I’m pretty much done. I spent quite a bit of money, both on others and myself. I really hate Christmas shopping. I can never seem to shop for anyone else. Then I alway overthink gifts. I try to put too much thought into getting something and I find the simplest things bring the most joy.

A small redesign to the site. Yeah, I was getting pretty bored of the last layout, so I decided to change a few colors and tweak things a little. It should all be a little cleaner, with more room on the sidebar for more stuff. The site pretty much now focuses on the blog, so there isn’t much of a navigation to speak of. I’ve noticed some bugs, which I plan to fix later on, and I want to incorporate my gaming habits in the site, I just haven’t figured out how yet.

So far, it’s turning out to be a pretty nice Christmas. Although I’m feeling quite sick. Been coughing like crazy.

Anyway, not much to report. I’m quite tired, and I’m at work. So back to work for me. Merry Christmas everyone, and if I don’t post before New Year’s, then Happy New Year’s.

Brian: i like rodeo
Brian: it’s when you’re topping somebody
Brian: and u shout YEEE HAAH
prjkthack: lol
Brian: and suddenly everyone comes out from the room
Brian: takes pictures
Brian: and runs away
prjkthack: oh
prjkthack: how awkward
Brian: isn’t it?
Brian: i imagine people coming out from under the bed, from the closet
Brian: behind the door
Brian: from the cabinets
Brian: GLORIOUS

Saturday November 29, 2008
Battle

I really want to write something long, but the words don’t seem to come to me.

Thankful? I am. For Komoda, J, Teddy. For my friends. For change. For progress and for music.

Watched some Everwood, Jack & Bobby, and Gilmore Girls - I miss those shows. Bought an Xbox 360. Started a Netflix subscription. Upgraded to the NXE and created an avatar. Started work on a new site. Did some upgrades to the existing site. Finally slowed down. Had a great Thanksgiving. Doing a lot of spending at Starbucks. Gaining even more weight. Thinking about Las Vegas (and Reno) in January. Cleaned out a bunch of games (for almost $300 in credit). Re-arranged some of the stuff in my room and cleaned it completely.

Sometimes I wonder why people try so hard. It all seems so fleeting and futile.

Sunday November 09, 2008
Potential

It’s a rather cold night tonight. Colder than most. It’s a sign that winter is upon us.

Ever start on something, and then half-way through, realize that what you started is no longer what you wanted? I can be really indecisive. I’ve had this happen to me on numerous instances. Yet its one of those things that you never learn to prevent. It is something that you just start, and then by nature, really figure it out later on during the process.

I think at this point, I’m just rambling. I’ve been doing that more often lately. Not really thinking about what I’m actually saying and just saying it.

I just texted Teddy and told him that I was feeling emo. He immediately assumed that I meant the sad, lonely, cut-your-wrist kind of emo. What people don’t always realize though, is that emo does not only refer to sad emotions. It can be a wide range of emotions. There are days when I feeling just about everything at once. The good and the bad, the sad and the happy. Times like these I feel like hiding under a blanket and never coming out.

I’ve been putting myself out there a lot lately. When I say a lot, I mean it. I think that I’m going to have to slow down a bit and take a break. Get my feet back on the ground. Certainly getting out there is a great feeling, but it leaves much to be desired. It’s time to get back to me (I think I’ve said that before recently).

I just caught up on a couple episodes of One Tree Hill. Man, if I were involved in that kind of drama, I’d have probably gone crazy. For some reason though, that’s the kind of drama I want to be around. Despite all the bad stuff, there is so much love and so much happiness. It just feels normal and proper. Well, maybe except for the murder, but still, even that in itself can be exciting (yes, that sounds terribly mean).

Party at the end of the month. Schedules changing in the middle of the month (and I’m crossing my fingers for that 4-day work week). Just completed a year with Helio. Three dates with you so far. Getting back into gaming, slowly but surely. Gaining weight again, finally. New music. New light bulb. Sadness over the passing of Prop 8. A little more tolerance for something that I used to not enjoy. Trust and amazement for someone who I just was unsure about. A new opportunity. Still having ‘fun’. Much happiness that Obama was elected. Upgraded to Mines of Moria. Subscribed to Zune Pass.

I cannot wait to love again.

Tuesday October 14, 2008
Of Dust And Nations

My friends, both old and new, have brought back what I have been missing. Something that most of us don’t realize is missing until after the fact. I feel normal again.

People have brought up some interesting points recently. How and why things happen the way that they do, progression and the past, priorities and time, the laws of attraction and sex, the dating game and all that’s involved, being prepared and not being ready. Suffice to say, things are much different than they were one year ago. I’m not the same person that I once was, and things have changed so quickly in the past three weeks that its been simply amazing.

Every single bit of it has been a breath of fresh air.

Speaking of the dating game, it’s time to get back into it. I’ve met some pretty great people over the past few weeks, and while I’m not holding out for anything, I am keeping my options open. It’s been a rather interesting ride so far, so we’ll see where it goes.

I had a new design in the pipeline, and it was just about done. Some stuff happened though, so I don’t know when I’m going to be able to push out anything new. We shall see. I’ve got a lot of inspiration bottled up right now, so I hope something comes out of that.

Surgery rescheduled for Thursday, but work continues until then. Business meeting sometime this week (hopefully). Another date. More gaming and Smash Bros. New music and new friends. More shopping and new clothes. Sleepless nights caused by incredibly long phone calls (726 minutes so far).

“So put your faith, in more than steel…”

Tuesday January 02, 2007
Rebirth

Happy New Year! 2006 has finally left our eyes, and 2007 has come into view. Its been a really great year, definintely high up there.

I hope that 2007 brings lots of great things. Already the days are rolling on as if nothing has changed. Tomorrow begins the LAN Party, then shortly after that its Kauai. The JCCH Ohana Day Festival, Kawaii Kon 2007, birthdays, parties, friends and families. Things definitely won’t be slowing down.

Got a PS2 yesterday. I’m certainly no fan of Sony’s, but I cannot deny that there are some great games available for the platform. Since the PS2 is now cheap, what better time to get into it than now. Now I can continue playing some of the games that I already own, and waste time on new games. Also been playing tons of Wii and GameCube. The after-Christmas sales reaped lots of fun (and emptied my wallet).

I know I probably won’t write in here for a few weeks (again), so I’ll celebrate a few birthdays. Happy Birthday to Terence, and to Trina. Further in the month, I send birthday wishes to Daniel, Noel and Amanda. I also want to wish Devan a happy birthday - wish you were here dude.

Anyway, I’m off to bed. Long day tomorrow.