http://www.prjkthack.com en hack@prjkthack.com Copyright 2008 2008-11-09T06:38:02-10:00 http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/potential/ http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/potential/#When:06:38:02Z It’s a rather cold night tonight. Colder than most. It’s a sign that winter is upon us. Ever start on something, and then half-way through, realize that what you started is no longer what you wanted? I can be really indecisive. I’ve had this happen to me on numerous instances. Yet its one of those things that you never learn to prevent. It is something that you just start, and then by nature, really figure it out later on during the process. I think at this point, I’m just rambling. I’ve been doing that more often lately. Not really thinking about what I’m actually saying and just saying it. I just texted Teddy and told him that I was feeling emo. He immediately assumed that I meant the sad, lonely, cut-your-wrist kind of emo. What people don’t always realize though, is that emo does not only refer to sad emotions. It can be a wide range of emotions. There are days when I feeling just about everything at once. The good and the bad, the sad and the happy. Times like these I feel like hiding under a blanket and never coming out. I’ve been putting myself out there a lot lately. When I say a lot, I mean it. I think that I’m going to have to slow down a bit and take a break. Get my feet back on the ground. Certainly getting out there is a great feeling, but it leaves much to be desired. It’s time to get back to me (I think I’ve said that before recently). I just caught up on a couple episodes of One Tree Hill. Man, if I were involved in that kind of drama, I’d have probably gone crazy. For some reason though, that’s the kind of drama I want to be around. Despite all the bad stuff, there is so much love and so much happiness. It just feels normal and proper. Well, maybe except for the murder, but still, even that in itself can be exciting (yes, that sounds terribly mean). Party at the end of the month. Schedules changing in the middle of the month (and I’m crossing my fingers for that 4-day work week). Just completed a year with Helio. Three dates with you so far. Getting back into gaming, slowly but surely. Gaining weight again, finally. New music. New light bulb. Sadness over the passing of Prop 8. A little more tolerance for something that I used to not enjoy. Trust and amazement for someone who I just was unsure about. A new opportunity. Still having ‘fun’. Much happiness that Obama was elected. Upgraded to Mines of Moria. Subscribed to Zune Pass. I cannot wait to love again. General 2008-11-09T06:38:02-10:00 http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/of_dust_and_nations/ http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/of_dust_and_nations/#When:09:45:57Z My friends, both old and new, have brought back what I have been missing. Something that most of us don’t realize is missing until after the fact. I feel normal again. People have brought up some interesting points recently. How and why things happen the way that they do, progression and the past, priorities and time, the laws of attraction and sex, the dating game and all that’s involved, being prepared and not being ready. Suffice to say, things are much different than they were one year ago. I’m not the same person that I once was, and things have changed so quickly in the past three weeks that its been simply amazing. Every single bit of it has been a breath of fresh air. Speaking of the dating game, it’s time to get back into it. I’ve met some pretty great people over the past few weeks, and while I’m not holding out for anything, I am keeping my options open. It’s been a rather interesting ride so far, so we’ll see where it goes. I had a new design in the pipeline, and it was just about done. Some stuff happened though, so I don’t know when I’m going to be able to push out anything new. We shall see. I’ve got a lot of inspiration bottled up right now, so I hope something comes out of that. Surgery rescheduled for Thursday, but work continues until then. Business meeting sometime this week (hopefully). Another date. More gaming and Smash Bros. New music and new friends. More shopping and new clothes. Sleepless nights caused by incredibly long phone calls (726 minutes so far). “So put your faith, in more than steel...” General 2008-10-14T09:45:57-10:00 http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/elegy/ http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/elegy/#When:08:46:48Z You break free of something, and while everything is coming apart, you also see it coming together. It’s both an ugly and beautiful sight. One that cannot be defined or categorized. Something you hope you never see again, but from time to time desire. Things are in motion once again. Moving forward, or backwards, depending on how you look at it. It’s time to build new things and fix all the broken ones. Throw out the stuff that did nothing, and abandon everything (and sometimes everyone) you thought you knew. Hearts break and tears are shed. You know what you’ve done, but sometimes you can’t help it. You feel guilty and bitter at the same time. You wish for things to be the same, yet you wish for it to have never started in the first place. You realize how different things could have been, though all your experiences tell a different story. We move past the destruction of what we once were, and step into the ashes of ourselves. Push through, and don’t look back. General 2008-10-02T08:46:48-10:00 http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/echoes/ http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/echoes/#When:09:59:29Z So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With all your heart. I guess I really haven’t been in the writing mood. Everytime I try to write, I feel blocked by something. I don’t know if its something going on right now, or if it happens to be something in the past… heck, maybe its related to the future. I hope that it goes away. I miss my ability to write one paragraph after another. The Thrice concert was awesome. They played some of their old stuff, which I never really got into. Hearing it again made me go back and rediscover the music that I’ve missed from them. Some of the stuff from the Red Sky EP has caught my attention, along with a few songs from Identity Crisis and Artist In The Ambulance. Makes me wonder why I ever removed the older stuff to begin with. I still like The Alchemy Index better, but all their music holds a place in my playlist. Seeing my friends was even more awesome. I don’t always get the things that they say and do now. I suppose i’m no longer part of the circle, but I still enjoy their company very much. It’s a rare chance I get every now and then to just go crazy. I’ve always wanted to eat at Ninniku-ya, and today was the day that I finally got to. All the garlic infused foods were absolutely delicious. They gave a generous portion of steak with a delicious sauce, numerous dipping sauces and a few sides. I loved it. Totally worth all the waiting and wanting. Of course it came at a price. The meal was almost $100 for just the two of us, which I guess isn’t too bad when you think about it. Then again, its not normal that I pay nearly $100 for a 2-person meal. There are a lot of things on my mind, especially as of late. I’ve lost a few things recently, but I’ve also gained other things. Life is all about balance, and keeping that balance is most difficult. Quincy just left, and while I realize its only for a few weeks, I’m still going to miss the nights at Starbucks, at least until he gets back. Marc has decided not to remain here in the islands, and will be moving back in a few weeks, which also makes me sad. A few people have left the office recently, and while I didn’t know them very well, I know they are people I know I could’ve grown to love. I’m going to miss my morning coffee with Brandi. Ricci is making me an alcoholic, which is fun, but probably not a good thing. I have to try and pace myself. I’ve typed a good size entry today. Funny how after I complained about not being able to do so, I end up with more than what I expected. Anyway, I have work tomorrow. Have a great night. General 2008-09-08T09:59:29-10:00 http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/403_pm/ http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/403_pm/#When:02:03:30Z Holy crap. Our soda machines accept credit cards now. That will not be good for my bank account. I keep meaning to write more, but of course, I’m so busy now that I can’t sit down for a few minutes to do any one thing. General 2008-09-04T02:03:30-10:00 http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/tong_hua/ http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/tong_hua/#When:00:25:14Z I was terribly irritated last night, and to a certain extent, I still am. I’ll finish later. I’m too tired right now. Friends first. Always. General 2008-08-25T00:25:14-10:00 http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/variables/ http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/variables/#When:13:34:36Z There comes a point when you just have to step back and look at everything you’ve got. The past, the present, and the future. I may be at one of those points right now, I’m not too sure. I’m not too sure of anything at this point. Right now the only constant is the people around me. I wish I had more to say. I don’t quite know what I should do. You should be happy, and I can’t tell you if that’ll happen with me. I’ve made small changes, but again, you have to help too. There are things that I just can’t do, and I know there are many things you won’t do either. That doesn’t mean I don’t love you or you don’t love me. There are just some things that can’t be changed, or take too long to change. You’re impatient, and while I’m more forgiving, I can’t be that way forever. We shouldn’t have to make drastic changes in order to remain happy. Then you wouldn’t be you, and I wouldn’t be me. I’m tired. General 2008-07-31T13:34:36-10:00 http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/multi_tasking/ http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/multi_tasking/#When:20:33:39Z It’s something I’m not really good at. Here at my work desk: PSP playing music, DS with Megman ZX running, my computer with at least 5 windows open at all times, a notepad for taking notes, my Ocean connected to AIM, and a headset connected to a phone call with a more-than-likely irritated customer on the line. I guess I have so little time these days that I just have to start multi-tasking or else I would never get anything done (well except for what I’m focusing on). I just have to get used to it. At least it’s lunch time now, so I don’t have to focus on quite as much. Started playing Silent Hill 0rigins for PSP. It seems really Resident Evil-ish, but I’m enjoying it despite the fact that I keep dying. These clumsy controls aren’t helping at all. The lighting and shadow effects are really nice. I cleaned up my Facebook and MySpace friend lists. I got rid of the people that I no longer speak to, and those that I barely know, and those that just irritate the fuck out of me. I did lots of cleaning up really. Deleted old accounts, deactivated things that I don’t use, consolidated my financial information, re-did my website, even cleaned up my room a little. Oh yeah. So this is the new site. I quite like it. Simple and colorful. There is quite a bit of information missing from my blog, but that’s how I want it. I’m going to completely focus on blogging life, with a little bit of gaming. I don’t watch much anime anymore, not even Bleach. I’ll try to get back into it at a later date, but even then I don’t see myself writing whole reviews or previews about it. It’s just a big waste of time. I’ve added the ability for me to blog from my phone, so you should be seeing shorter blogs more often, some maybe containing a photo and a caption. The ‘Gaming’ section isn’t a blog, but it’s more of a section dedicated to all my gaming-related habits; lists, friend codes, my Xbox Live GamerCard, what I’m playing, all that kind of stuff. There are still some changes to be done, but I look forward to at least a year with this revision. Lunch is almost done. I just had curry and it was good. I’m tired and I want to sleep, but I also want to stay awake and play LoTRO. Decisions decisions. General 2008-07-09T20:33:39-10:00 http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/foreword/ http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/foreword/#When:11:17:22Z This is an end. An end filled with new hopes and new dreams - some that I’ve longed for, and others that I’ve never had before. Something brave and gutsy, and maybe even foolish. It’s an ending toward a direction that I know is neither right nor wrong. I just have to keep going and hope that the things along this path are positive. Part of the fact of being me is knowing that positive is not an absolute truth. There will be negative… there will definitely be negative… but in the end it shouldn’t matter at all. Tomorrow I’ll go to work and notice how empty it is around me. Bland, boring buildings and tall grass as far as the eye can see. I see it so empty, but I feel the complete opposite. I see new faces that I’ll grow to love, and old ones that will never falter. I see brand new experiences, and continuing journeys. I see things that I never thought I’d see before, and the people who are there to see it with me. And if I look just beyond the bland, boring buildings… beyond the tall grass… I’ll see someone that I love. Someone that I don’t go a day without. Someone who only wishes the best for me, and pushes me to places that - while I may not want to go - are ideal for me. Someone who strives to better both himself and the one he loves. I’m trying - I hope that you see that. I’m changing - I hope that you continue to change with me. I’m here - No matter where I am. To some - and you know who you are: you know that I appreciate everything you do, and hope that you realize just how much I feel for you. And to you: You already know what I want to say to you. Don’t you forget it. This is a beginning. General 2008-06-10T11:17:22-10:00 http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/hajime/ http://www.prjkthack.com/blog/hajime/#When:14:11:03Z Here we go again. So of course, this certainly isn’t my new website or anything. It’s the same one that I’ve had for a few years now, just with some tweaks. I put more work into the backend more than anything, and it all starts with a brand new server. I expanded my gaming blog to include other platforms, as my gaming has recently expanded to almost every other platform not made by Nintendo. I haven’t watched any anime recently, but I want to try to get back into that (at least a little), so expect some updates there. I did delete the Naruto category since I just totally ditched the series. RSS is back, along with much cleaner URLs. I’m probably going to start designing a brand new site once I have the time and the inspiration. For now I’ll continue to tweak this one till it dies. Outside of the internet, things have been going quite well. Then again, I can only tell you what I think, and that’s what I think. I have no reason to believe otherwise, so I’m going with that. I’ve pretty much gotten used to my new living situation, but there are always the little things that bother me (or someone else). So in brief: Switched from Samsung, to iPod, to Zune. Bought an Xbox 360 and a bunch of games. Bought a PSP and a few games. Kawaii Kon is less than a month away. Got a Helio Ocean (which I am very happy with). Bought a new computer, new monitor, and a new printer. Upgraded the video card on the new computer to a Nvidia GeForce 8800GT. Playing Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles: Ring of Fates on the DS. Didn’t get any bonuses from Wal-Mart (or the Assistant Manager position for that matter). Need to have surgery done. Saw Incubus, Brand New, and MxPx in concert. I also love Shannon. Time for sleep. Work tomorrow. Good night. General 2008-03-27T14:11:03-10:00