Stuff from October 2008.

Elegy
Thursday October 02, 2008

You break free of something, and while everything is coming apart, you also see it coming together. It’s both an ugly and beautiful sight. One that cannot be defined or categorized. Something you hope you never see again, but from time to time desire.

Things are in motion once again. Moving forward, or backwards, depending on how you look at it. It’s time to build new things and fix all the broken ones. Throw out the stuff that did nothing, and abandon everything (and sometimes everyone) you thought you knew.

Hearts break and tears are shed. You know what you’ve done, but sometimes you can’t help it. You feel guilty and bitter at the same time. You wish for things to be the same, yet you wish for it to have never started in the first place. You realize how different things could have been, though all your experiences tell a different story.

We move past the destruction of what we once were, and step into the ashes of ourselves.

Push through, and don’t look back.

Of Dust And Nations
Tuesday October 14, 2008

My friends, both old and new, have brought back what I have been missing. Something that most of us don’t realize is missing until after the fact. I feel normal again.

People have brought up some interesting points recently. How and why things happen the way that they do, progression and the past, priorities and time, the laws of attraction and sex, the dating game and all that’s involved, being prepared and not being ready. Suffice to say, things are much different than they were one year ago. I’m not the same person that I once was, and things have changed so quickly in the past three weeks that its been simply amazing.

Every single bit of it has been a breath of fresh air.

Speaking of the dating game, it’s time to get back into it. I’ve met some pretty great people over the past few weeks, and while I’m not holding out for anything, I am keeping my options open. It’s been a rather interesting ride so far, so we’ll see where it goes.

I had a new design in the pipeline, and it was just about done. Some stuff happened though, so I don’t know when I’m going to be able to push out anything new. We shall see. I’ve got a lot of inspiration bottled up right now, so I hope something comes out of that.

Surgery rescheduled for Thursday, but work continues until then. Business meeting sometime this week (hopefully). Another date. More gaming and Smash Bros. New music and new friends. More shopping and new clothes. Sleepless nights caused by incredibly long phone calls (726 minutes so far).

“So put your faith, in more than steel…”

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