Tong Hua
      Sunday August 24, 2008

I was terribly irritated last night, and to a certain extent, I still am.

I’ll finish later. I’m too tired right now.

Friends first. Always.

Variables
      Thursday July 31, 2008

There comes a point when you just have to step back and look at everything you’ve got. The past, the present, and the future. I may be at one of those points right now, I’m not too sure. I’m not too sure of anything at this point.

Right now the only constant is the people around me.

I wish I had more to say. I don’t quite know what I should do. You should be happy, and I can’t tell you if that’ll happen with me. I’ve made small changes, but again, you have to help too. There are things that I just can’t do, and I know there are many things you won’t do either. That doesn’t mean I don’t love you or you don’t love me. There are just some things that can’t be changed, or take too long to change. You’re impatient, and while I’m more forgiving, I can’t be that way forever. We shouldn’t have to make drastic changes in order to remain happy. Then you wouldn’t be you, and I wouldn’t be me.

I’m tired.

Multi-tasking
      Wednesday July 09, 2008

It’s something I’m not really good at. Here at my work desk: PSP playing music, DS with Megman ZX running, my computer with at least 5 windows open at all times, a notepad for taking notes, my Ocean connected to AIM, and a headset connected to a phone call with a more-than-likely irritated customer on the line. I guess I have so little time these days that I just have to start multi-tasking or else I would never get anything done (well except for what I’m focusing on). I just have to get used to it.

At least it’s lunch time now, so I don’t have to focus on quite as much.

Started playing Silent Hill 0rigins for PSP. It seems really Resident Evil-ish, but I’m enjoying it despite the fact that I keep dying. These clumsy controls aren’t helping at all. The lighting and shadow effects are really nice.

I cleaned up my Facebook and MySpace friend lists. I got rid of the people that I no longer speak to, and those that I barely know, and those that just irritate the fuck out of me. I did lots of cleaning up really. Deleted old accounts, deactivated things that I don’t use, consolidated my financial information, re-did my website, even cleaned up my room a little.

Oh yeah. So this is the new site. I quite like it. Simple and colorful. There is quite a bit of information missing from my blog, but that’s how I want it. I’m going to completely focus on blogging life, with a little bit of gaming. I don’t watch much anime anymore, not even Bleach. I’ll try to get back into it at a later date, but even then I don’t see myself writing whole reviews or previews about it. It’s just a big waste of time. I’ve added the ability for me to blog from my phone, so you should be seeing shorter blogs more often, some maybe containing a photo and a caption. The ‘Gaming’ section isn’t a blog, but it’s more of a section dedicated to all my gaming-related habits; lists, friend codes, my Xbox Live GamerCard, what I’m playing, all that kind of stuff. There are still some changes to be done, but I look forward to at least a year with this revision.

Lunch is almost done. I just had curry and it was good. I’m tired and I want to sleep, but I also want to stay awake and play LoTRO.

Decisions decisions.

Foreword
      Tuesday June 10, 2008

This is an end.

An end filled with new hopes and new dreams - some that I’ve longed for, and others that I’ve never had before. Something brave and gutsy, and maybe even foolish. It’s an ending toward a direction that I know is neither right nor wrong. I just have to keep going and hope that the things along this path are positive. Part of the fact of being me is knowing that positive is not an absolute truth. There will be negative… there will definitely be negative… but in the end it shouldn’t matter at all.

Tomorrow I’ll go to work and notice how empty it is around me. Bland, boring buildings and tall grass as far as the eye can see. I see it so empty, but I feel the complete opposite. I see new faces that I’ll grow to love, and old ones that will never falter. I see brand new experiences, and continuing journeys. I see things that I never thought I’d see before, and the people who are there to see it with me.

And if I look just beyond the bland, boring buildings… beyond the tall grass… I’ll see someone that I love. Someone that I don’t go a day without. Someone who only wishes the best for me, and pushes me to places that - while I may not want to go - are ideal for me. Someone who strives to better both himself and the one he loves.

I’m trying - I hope that you see that.
I’m changing - I hope that you continue to change with me.
I’m here - No matter where I am.

To some - and you know who you are: you know that I appreciate everything you do, and hope that you realize just how much I feel for you.
And to you: You already know what I want to say to you. Don’t you forget it.

This is a beginning.

Hajime
      Thursday March 27, 2008

Here we go again. So of course, this certainly isn’t my new website or anything. It’s the same one that I’ve had for a few years now, just with some tweaks. I put more work into the backend more than anything, and it all starts with a brand new server. I expanded my gaming blog to include other platforms, as my gaming has recently expanded to almost every other platform not made by Nintendo. I haven’t watched any anime recently, but I want to try to get back into that (at least a little), so expect some updates there. I did delete the Naruto category since I just totally ditched the series. RSS is back, along with much cleaner URLs.

I’m probably going to start designing a brand new site once I have the time and the inspiration. For now I’ll continue to tweak this one till it dies.

Outside of the internet, things have been going quite well. Then again, I can only tell you what I think, and that’s what I think. I have no reason to believe otherwise, so I’m going with that. I’ve pretty much gotten used to my new living situation, but there are always the little things that bother me (or someone else).

So in brief: Switched from Samsung, to iPod, to Zune. Bought an Xbox 360 and a bunch of games. Bought a PSP and a few games. Kawaii Kon is less than a month away. Got a Helio Ocean (which I am very happy with). Bought a new computer, new monitor, and a new printer. Upgraded the video card on the new computer to a Nvidia GeForce 8800GT. Playing Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles: Ring of Fates on the DS. Didn’t get any bonuses from Wal-Mart (or the Assistant Manager position for that matter). Need to have surgery done. Saw Incubus, Brand New, and MxPx in concert. I also love Shannon.

Time for sleep. Work tomorrow. Good night.